Monday, December 3, 2012

All I Want for Christmas

Around this time of year, I am frequently asked what I would like for Christmas.  Sure there are a few things that would be nice to have, but when I really think about it, all I want for Christmas is to be happy and healthy.  I spent last Christmas very sick in the hospital.  I was in quite a bit of pain and it felt nothing like Christmas.  The hospital was fantastic and did what they could to make it feel like Christmas, but when you're in the hospital, it's just not the same no matter what anybody does.

After that extremely difficult and unexpected time in the hospital, things were rough for me.  I developed Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and depression.  It actually left me fearing Christmas.  It was so upsetting that I couldn't even think about my favourite time of year.  Things are getting better now though, and I am really looking forward to Christmas.  I think I have come a long way since last year.  Things still aren't perfect (for example, when I first started hearing Christmas music, I was not prepared and would feel as if I was going to cry), but I'm working on it.  I am very excited for my Christmas bake sale that is coming up not only because I look forward to continuing my fundraising for my Ghana trip, but also because it is going to be very festive and I am looking forward to that!!

So, I'm pretty sure this Christmas will be a happy one.  I hope it's a healthy one as well.  I thought that after I had my gallbladder removed I would be safe from gallstones but I had one about a month ago.  It was extremely painful and I was in the hospital for nine days.  That experience was VERY difficult after everything I went through with the PTSD, but I'm feeling a lot better now.  So I now know it is very possible for me to still get gallstones, and I am currently also at risk of developing kidney stones.  My fingers are crossed that nothing will interrupt our plans this Christmas and that I can have an enjoyable time with my family!

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